i used to live here

but now you can find me here:

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have your cake and eat it too

too much to remember

i feel a lot wacky and out of my mind this week.

got back from a 5 day whirlwind [DC - NYC - Philly - NYC - Boston - L.A.]
and have had 4 days to recoop before a 3 day extravaganza [in San Francisco].

can't stop. won't stop.

just wish i could stop with this damn office space. that's all.

goo gooo gadget everything. BOOM!

music video: local natives "world news"

spot me.

crap.

i forgot what i was going to say.

pros and cons of balloons.

i keep shaking myself awake in the middle
of the day. daydreaming as usual. daydreaming about
getting back to my comfort. waking up to realize that, again,
he's off on tour. i'm feeling a little bit hazy.

i guess it hasn't hit me.

after 3 weeks of trying to soak up every second of
energy, + love,
[while still resuming as usual]
a weekend in the hot desert (overwhelmingly)
strengthened /
expanded /
bloated
my heart.
[my hands] my grip.

it all feels like those balloons on strings at the festivals...
going with the wind... individual
balloons.. holding up that string..
holding up each other.. out of line, but always in a line.
just when i think i've got a handle on it... the wind shifts.

but there is more good here than there is in a balloon.
(balloons liter the earth. they explode. they make your hair frizz.)

here balloons inspire.

they say it's gonna rain.

The trouble with weather forecasting is that it's right too often for us to ignore it and wrong too often for us to rely on it. -Patrick Young


To be interested in the changing seasons is a happier state of mind than to be hopelessly in love with spring. -George Santayana


Weather is a great metaphor for life - sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad, and there's nothing much you can do about it but carry an umbrella. -Terri Guillemets

i say, i'm tired of trying to plan ahead. impossible. perfectly impossible.

date in the park

Hula-hooping contest.

When I was 9 or 10, I used to hula-hoop in the backyard with a stop-watch in hand.
I wanted the Guinness World Record. I kind of still do...

2 days to go.

photos: mine & theirs

date with destiny

It's only natural for boyfriends and girlfriends to influence each others likes and dislikes over a period of time. Bands, songs, movies, adventures, all of those favorite things hold potential for being shared between a two. For me and mine, our musical tastes parallel. (Adversely, he only endures my passion for terrible reality television.) But slowly but surely, his love for film has found a place on my palate. If you know Kelcey, you know about his love for Joseph Gordon-Levitt. I will admit I found it peculiar and I was (admittedly) a bit jealous of the relationship. But after many endeavors from Brick to 500 Day of Summer, I've found myself enjoying JGL even without Kelcey around. I think we may be meant to be. (Shh! Don't tell Kelc!) The moment I knew during the Singing in the Rain inspired monologue when Joseph hosted SNL. Make 'em laugh made me smile. And now I've found this video on his personal blog, and I am obsessed. JGL is superb (per the usual) in this short film, but also I am completely addicted to the play with language here. The English major nerd that I am wants to type out every word. And of course.. the colors, the lack of saturation, the little flowers and animation, and that cute little mustache... What a beauty!

craving an authentic NY bagel

for my mom's 50th birthday last summer, we went on a trip to new york, and met up with the boys on tour. i'm not sure if missing New York led me to looking at my NYC pictures... or if looking at NYC pictures led me to missing New York. either way, i'm seriously craving an authentic NY bagel. anyone know where i can find one in L.A.?

my new york trip: june 4 - june 7, 2009

post-red-eye breakfast

shopping in soho

central park

new york city reunion: "we're in new york!"

broadway show: we went to see guys n dolls. starring lauren graham!

the most amazing dinner: freeman's in the LES.

city people. the walking man.

i love my boyfriend. my kpo.

statue of liberty. day 3.
remember 9/11.

local natives @ bowery ballroom.

thanks mom for an amazing trip to new york!

i love you and our adventures.

on the road again...

I'd rather be in Barcelona...

On our way home from Cabo we watched most of Vicky Cristina Barcelona. Kelcey and I both agreed that this was the silliest little song. It's placed all throughout the film, and it's all too catchy. And this has to be up there amongst the silliest music videos I've ever seen as well. Bonus points for the glimmer of light on the ring at the end.

Barcelonaaaa! If you happen to adore the song, here's a link to the band's myspace: http://www.myspace.com/giuliaylostellarini And... we are in luck. They will be at SXSW this year. Must see.

back to school

as i mentioned, i'm taking a class... back to school for me
this weekend i went to the getty.. for class.
then i went down to san clemente to hang out with kelcey's little sister.
pet shop. saw a pretty little bird. thought about painting it. (getty influenced i think)
stayed the night after crafting.
sunday - went to mass / open house / science fair / 8th grade classroom.
sunday night - noticed bird art in guest room. by kelcey. 7th grade.
this morning. phone call. i went to sabrina's school i said. oh that's my school too.
ah yes. of course.

I'm feeling very rusty.

I am feeling very rusty. Yes, I write tweets, blog posts, comments, and long winded e-mails, but the assignment of writing 1900 words is taunting me. Why in the world did I think I would enjoy a writing class?

I guess it was because... what I want to do most in life leaves me with more fear than desire. And I'm the kind of person that likes to keep growing. So it just seemed like the next thing to conquer. So I signed up, forcing myself to type type type in the dark night once again. All week I've been feeling that anxious stress that I felt for four years straight. I miss my calm happiness. I miss my lazy, not so guilty TV nights. Now I finally understand what it is to have a guilty pleasure again. It's the anything that takes you away from your homework. (Or other various responsibilities, goals, tasks, obligations.)

I went to a speaker - panel - writers' support group - session tonight. It was just that. Four professional writers up front, attempting to express their charm and wit off paper while the 20 of us in the room gazed at them in confusion. I'm not sure if they were encouraging me to pursue my dream, or slowly hinting to find a new one. "It's tough to pitch. It's lonely to stay at home. You never feel like you write anything well."

I'm thinking I want to keep at my 9 to 5. And continue pondering about all this writing stuff. And I think I'd just like to read more. Think more. Write more. Bah. Those writers really confused me. I can't wrap my mind around it all yet.

I guess it just seems that maybe the grass is always greener. Or maybe it just depends on the person. One of the writers was especially happy with his success. Another was especially happy with his non-success. And the others were just continuously striving to do more. One seemed always let down. The other seemed like he had a good head on his shoulders.

There are no rules. And I think I like that. And I think I like the idea of essays / memoir better than reporting. But who knows. I've never really tried it. I've got a lot to think about. Yup. A lot. I don't know if it'll ever make any sense. But a lot of the time writing it out helps. Thanks for helping me think.

8 weeks.

at least...

8 sessions of yoga.

8 bachelor jake nights.

8 trader joe adventures.

8 journal entries.

8 sleep in sundays.

8 runway episodes.

8 visits with friends.

8 friday nights.

...the 8th will be the most thankful.

Happy New Year!

hello 2010!