saturday morning thanks.

it's the kind of peacefulness that slightly leads to pinching. is this really mine and how did i get here? i'm surrounded by my things and my choices and i'm spinning in circles and laughing at myself. when asked how i did it, i said i didn't know. but when i thought about it longer, i realized i only tried. the plan was never a plan, only an experiment gone right. trial and error of course, and plenty of realizations of wrong turns, but never once giving up on myself... i found the good. because i wanted to find the good. i don't want to take any moment for less than what it is; i feel lucky. when asked about feeling alone along the way, i told her i wasn't. each of you loved ones who have been there and will be there have helped me. the lonely struggles are only struggles with the past. i had to stop looking back at those bumps and keep looking for something better. never settling. never tiring. always wanting. always appreciating.

the hunt

in the past year i've learned a lot. about communication with others. and appreciating what i have. and how to decipher between the good and the bad. i learned how to see what i want and put my energy in what i want, what is worth it, and to quit while i'm ahead with anything else. (that's not to say that giving up is okay, but just that when it's wrong, it's wrong. don't push it.)

so for the past month, the hunt has been on for my new homely dwelling. i knew where i wanted to go, so i searched and searched for every possibility to be found. while there were many, none have been the perfect place. and so i'm accepting that when it comes to apartment hunting, settling is necessary. (i'd never recommend settling to any fellow explorer in search of the good ones, however, when it comes to living situations, avoiding homelessness has to take priority.)

i think i may have found the one. a small little place of my own. it will definitely need some fixing up, and i hope my friends do not judge the book by its cover. it's an odd color green. (somewhat reminiscent of mint chocolate chip ice cream, so that's not half bad.) one of the biggest reasons i fell for this one was because of the manager of the building. she was a good one. willing to help and change anything, and wishing me luck in finding my perfect place no matter where it was. something about her made me happy there.

i go back today to turn in the application. fingers crossed. let's hope my search is complete.

the good stuff.

dinner and a concert.

home cooked meal after a long day of work.

visits with family.

perfectly acceptable silence.

teamwork.

dance parties.

splitting wine bottles.

kickball with friends.

laughing at awful tv.

what else can i say?

The top 5 words I've tweeted:

love

good

tonight

work

want

Sounds about right.